Holiday season seems to feel colder and colder, but this has nothing to do with the weather. Last year I do not even remember christmas, no tree, no money and I dont remember if I even participated in family functions, I would like to think so. This year will be worse, I live with a screaming banchee and can never seem to avoid stepping in her path, I scoot to the bedroom as soon as she walks through the door as to not upset her. I can never tell exactly what will upset her. A dirty knife in the sink, the screen door not closed all the way, my stocking foot resting on the couch, opening the bedroom door in the middle of the night to use the bathroom. All the yelling and screaming, banging and slamming, I have found myself back in a house full of craziness. The craziness all caused by the "adult". I still thank her for letting me stay, money has been so bad that I have no other options... mom and dad are in a tiny cabin with no heat and a leaky roof (seriously! check out www.redponyfarm.typepad.com). I have decided to do what I can to stop the frequent screams (nothing will) and keep to myself, save money and wait until I am out in the streets in the middle of winter, I actually think she kicked us out this morning, I am waiting to find out for sure. Just a little bit more saved up and I will be able to get another place. I miss my heart in the form of a city (Portland) because quite frankly and litterally, Westbrook stinks.